venting... i guessi guess the fact that i'm a cutter makes my life a lil interesting, depending on who you talk to.
maybe sometimes being shy isn't necessarily a bad thing. for the most part i think it is tho. i know, i'm an interesting person sometimes. depends on my mood sometimes...same with many other things. for whatever reason, one of the most common words used to describe me is interesting. vague, but true...sometimes.
i realize that i use a lot of the same words and/or phrases,whether i'm talking,typing, and/or writing...for example, the word 'sometimes'.
i think part of the reason why is because i'm an inbetween/middle-ground person. it's not always one extreme or the other. although sometimes it is, and isn't necessarily bad... but it usually is. bad always seems to overwhelm the good in my life.
music is the most or one of the most important things in my life. it gets me through pretty much anything/everything...good or bad.
i wish i didn't dislike my body so much. i can't help but cry sometimes during the day(mostly at night tho) when i think about it. generally i consistently am aware of my flaws but randomly(usually) i'm more focused on my body and flaws. some days are worse than others of course, and i can't help it. it sucks.
i hate not liking myself... whether it's my body and/or personality or anything else. i try being more positive, but it doesn't work. i just hate myself so much sometimes(most of the time,actually).
GAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! i fucking HATE the holiday season... fucking BULLSHIT... i'm gonna fuckin freak out and break down tonight, i know it. i have to spend the evening w/ too much family(including little kids,which i don't like) and of course i'll get yelled at for anything/everything. i can't hardly fuckin listen to and/or watch what i want to because for whatever reason(s) it offends ppl... and i have to put up w/ everyone's fuckin bullshit because i'm suppose to be decent and 'socialize' with ppl and be all happy cuz i'm getting stuff for xmas... blah, blah, FUCKING Blah.
i can't fucking wait for all this shit to be done and over with. this fucking SUCKS.
[to be continued...]
Miserable
Devious Comments
What do you mean by cutter?
And how do you meet all these far away people who are selfish enough to not stay in touch?
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If fish could fly, then we are all fucked.
Love letters are never silly, silly.
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the voices may not be real, but they still have good ideas
for the most part, i've gotten used to it... but it still sucks pretty bad most of the time.
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" if they think that an artist can destroy their faith, then their faith is rather fragile " - Marilyn Manson
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" if they think that an artist can destroy their faith, then their faith is rather fragile " - Marilyn Manson
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A man is but the product of his thoughts; what he thinks, he becomes." - Gandhi
Seriously, I can't find fault with you. Granted, I haven't known you long, but I only need to know someone for a day or so before I can read 'em like a book.
You're wonderful, you really are. You just don't know it yet. ;3
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Oxy-clean is keeping the angel robes white now </3
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I'm gonna sing the Doom song now!
I find that unless the people are local, meeting new persons at events is most lacking in satisfaction after awhile. The initial excitement of meeting some interesting new person you can talk to online slowly fades away after a week or two and then you rarely ever talk again.
I definitly understand that...it is...very irritating
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If fish could fly, then we are all fucked.
Love letters are never silly, silly.
trying not to be an ass but....
"down the river not across the street"
i wait the stones to fly through my windows...
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Escape is possible this way.
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the voices may not be real, but they still have good ideas
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